Today

Woke up tired. It is Friday and for whatever reason I always feel stressed on Fridays. I got the baby dressed and decised to put him in the running stroller and get moving. But after 1/2 a mile..my knees were hurting so we went home. I ate some almonds and cleaned up the house. Then I put the baby down for a nap and worked out for 30 minutes. I also punched the heavy bag and got out some aggression and that was helpful.

Then I ate an apple. The baby woke up and we ran some errands. We stopped by my moms and I was starving. I had 5 crackers, hummus and a tomato. It filled me up and I felt good. I am noticing my anger at my mom for stuff that had happened when we were younger. I am trying not to push it down. I still, after all of these years, try to protect my mom.

Then we came home and the baby napped and I actually napped for the first time in a very long time. It was nice. Hopefully tonight will be a night free of binges and purges. UGH the war in my own head hurts.